man oh man has it been a while. four months I think. wow. cool, junior year! cool!
guys. tomorrow at 11:20 am I will be on a plane headed to Cajamarca, Peru. I am in awe at the way the Lord has blessed me by allowing me to go on this trip and bless people overseas with the amazing team I have been provided. But preparing for this trip God has show me something very evidently that I really just decided to face: I am extremely selfish.
selfishness is a word I hate. I can’t stand it when people are selfish. it irritates me to no end. why don’t they think about somebody else for once? I never in one million years thought it was me. but I didn’t know what I was doing was selfish. I didn’t know allowing myself to be stressed out was selfish, or making excuses for my irresponsibility was selfish, or that throwing a pity party for myself because of my irresponsibility was selfish, but it was. it is. all of those things distracted me from the reason I am alive: to glorify the Lord. when you’re focused on yourself, you aren’t focused on the mission Christ has for you. because his mission for us is to die to ourselves. dying to ourselves means not letting ourselves get discouraged. it means picking up our cross daily and following Him!
So if you get a chance, please remember to pray for the hearts in PERU to be changed and the hearts of those on the team to be changed and selfishness to be replaced with Jesus in all of our lives. I’ll be there until the 21st so please pray whenever you can! I love you guys so much.
Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. Philippians 4:6